MY DARKNESS SMILES

My darkness smiles:

I killed you yesterday.

It was so easy, so fast.

(the treasure of mind)

I hate your still eyes,

Everything I couldn’t

find where you used

to stand, everything

I couldn’t tell you or

understand when you

smiled and I was lost,

and I was wild.

I killed you and it was

such a pleasure when

I sent you to hell. Who

Could foretell such a

tragedy? Who could guess

this fatality? As I told

myself a long time ago

I have no time for

sentimentality:

you can only reap

what you sow.

My darkness smiles:

I killed you yesterday.

Now I can sit and relax.

Now I can forget your

worn words and my paid

score. My heart you ripped

and tore, my soul you squeezed

and swept.

Oh! My love, I wept, I wept.

Oh! My love, I crept, I crept.

My darkness is free.

Now tell me when you look

at me, what can you see?

The woman I was or the

woman you helped to

destroy? True love or

just a toy?

Nothing really matters

anymore.

I am free. Can you see

my black wings? Can you

see the monstrosities you

painted upon my heart and

around our rings?

My darkness smiles.

I killed you.

I know the purity of despair.

I killed you in my heart,

in my soul, in my life.

(I swear, I swear…)

Karla Bardanza