I SHALL CHARM FATE

i want those mysteries the sea hides

from me as i wait the turning of tide

searching for the words i can't find

to explain this fate of mine.

rooted in blood i should be happy

and high, i should be an example

of something the wind might say

but i need another beer, another day.

if i could listen to Sade and

try again to stop the rain

from falling on my absurd hopes,

maybe i could be less invisible.

but nothing is probable and plausible

when I thrust my heart in my pockets.

life seems to be a melody so inaudible:

i can't hear it or even see the words jumping

from the mouth of my latest weary dream.

i am exiled in Never Never Land

or so it is/ seems. Who will help me

to decipher what i can't understand?

who will help me to read the enigmas

of the sea or shake the sand of my shoes?

i am forever living and dying. i am

forever hiding my ridiculous bruise.

i shall charm fate with my fatal eyes.

maybe I will wear my black leather boots.

if it doesns't work, i'll go back to my roots.

i am so used to chains and meaningless ties.

i want the sea and the jealous moon

as the insane night makes me crawl.

i want my life, i want the world,.

can't you see i want it all?

Karla Bardanza

Copyright©Karla Bardanza 2011